where does my help come from?

have been super lethagic over the past few days. just can't get started on the last assignment. all the materials are ready. but the work stops there...
at the moment.

and wat have i been doing? watching TV, reading, and ranting through emails. and the ranting did me NO good. coz i went through the cycle of being angry and disappointed again.
about what? about the job thingy again.

i'm still waiting for news. and i'm going home in 2 weeks. if its bad news. tell me NOW. i felt that it was not fair. but not fair to who? they're not obligated anyway. this just shows the reality of life.

i prayed. i hate this feeling. i dun like to have negative thoughts against anyone.
i wanna trust God that He will provide for all our needs.

and where does my help come from?
from the Maker of the heaven and earth
He will not slumber nor will He sleep
He watches over my life

Man's words are transient. Your words are everlasting.

God, I believe in you. I do.

see you next semester

yup. see you next semester.
today is the last day of school for me.
what's left now is to mug at home for the remaining assignments
(yeah! submitted 1 today!)

some classmates i will see again in feb
many i will not see again coz it's their final semester
or they would take other courses next semester

but i thank god for a truly enjoyable first semester, despite the frustrations (esp. with that ONE course). i'm already looking forward to the new semester.
haha. crazy, ain't i?

p.s.: thank god for the inspiration for my final assignment this morning. now i just need to go read up and write out.

sweet gesture

had a pleasant surprise while shopping at KMart today.
they gave out free lollies. why? because there were some teeny
technical problems with their cashiers and customers

had to wait a teeny bit longer than usual.

you will not get this kind of service from the NTUC aunties.

and....i was in the line for less than 2 mins. haha.

so it was really SWEET of them....and the lolly is nice. me buying a packet home.

today it roared. twice.

For the first time in 4 months, I heard thunder.
You can imagine the scarcity of rain in this part of the world.
Couldn't resist it. I had to go to the balcony and snap some pictures.

The smell of rain - refreshing.

the first "love"

Chanced upon Aaron's new album early this morning(4am to be precise) when I was taking a break after I finished one of my assignments.

How come he still looks sooo gooood after so many years one? Haha...

Brings back so many memories. For those of you who din know...I spent my secondary school days chasing after this guy. Yes, you are right. I was one of those who will camp outside a venue just to catch a glimpse of the idol. Here are the top 10 things that I did. I still wonder why I did these crazy stuff years ago. Ah....the charm of youth.

1. Joined the fan club

2. Have a pen-pal. Just because she is a fan too! Imagine. Corresponding in LETTERS from Lavender Street to Jurong West just to tell each other how much we like him.

3. Buy the most expensive tickets to every concert and sit within first 2 rows.

4. Grabbed his hands after the concert and refused to wash hands for a day.

5. Queued for XXX hours outside venues where he is due to perform.

6. Visit a shop in Selegie every week and spend all available pocket money on photos, cards, notepads, cups, bookmarks, posters - whatever is new and has THE FACE on it. Very convenient, because the tuition centre is just next door.

7. Spot, buy (or beg, borrow, steal), cut and paste every newspaper, magazine article there is on him.

8. Skipped class (mind you, this is in JC times) by having a like-minded classmate driving her father's car to college and drove from Linden Drive to Caldecott Hill - and joined the club people to wait nearly 8 hours for his TV performance.

9. Spent 1 day at shopping centre to queue for his signature on new ablum on the eve of prelims (or was it promos?)

10. Watched every movie, variety programme, TV serial that I can get my eyes on.

I still have the newspaper clippings and tons of photos - collecting dust in the shadows of my room. I wonder how my kids will react when they know these antics of their mum. Hahahaha..

This song was written by Jay Chou. I like. Alot.

MIA Status

Ok, enough of all the play.

I am going to work very hard for the next 2 weeks. Have not worked this hard since the start of semester. So...I will be banning myself from cyberspace till I finish my assignments.....unless there are very extraordinary things that happened lah.

Have to get serious already. Ha.

Iron Chef 2006

I am the Iron Chef!

Today was the OCF UQ Iron Chef 2006 competition. 2 teams were running for the title of Iron Chef 2006. They have 2 hours, 3 ingredients and alot of chaos. Haha...

The secret ingredients were oranges, lemons and strawberries. Very healthy huh? Our team came up with 4 dishes..and blew the judges away with the taste and creativity. They told us it was a close fight..I agree...the competitor's dishes were gooood too. But who cares, WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! Hee.....




This is "Saladoire Elaineous Strawberriesoie". These very scientific names were conjured by ST - the aspiring dentist to be in my team. If u look carefully, each dish has our names in it. Hee.... as the name suggests, its a salad with tuna, the normal salad stuff, and covered with orange/lemon/honey dressing.




This is "Chickenaire Daveous Orangenous"
Made from chicken thigh meat - stuffed with
corn rice, onions, orange & lemon slices and mushrooms,
then baked to perfection.





This is "Nuttiesire Exteewoonous Riceousis". It's fried
rice with baby spinach - seasoned with satay powder and
lotsa nuts! Of course, not forgeting the special orange and
lemon sauce too...





I made this! "Pizzaeusire Toweluise" is a crispy puff pastry
with sweet orange and strawberry filling. Tastes heavenly when
eaten with honey and chocolate topping.






Our competition. Looks nice right? Haha...I call them
the gourmet team coz everything is so refined.








These are the "trophies". I got the red one....
Haha...but I honestly dun mind being the runner-up
too..coz I like the blue plate better.



I so motivated that I made a little video. Haha....the judges are funny lah.

Mad writing..in progress

I read and write, read and write, read and write...and the cycle goes on.
No life!

Even on my bed I will think of how to link the concepts together and present the arguments.
Mad ah!

Hope to end my agony in 2 weeks time. 1 week before the deadlines so that I can have time to re-look at my theoretical rantings. Haha....

I saw Blooey today. It showed its underside to me, coz it was on the side of the tank.
Naughty Blooey. Hee.......

Blue-ey? Blooey?

I decided that I will "adopt" a new pet today.
It caught my eye the moment I saw it 4 months ago.
Well, it doesn't really belong to me.
"Adopting" just gives me a sense of false ownership over it.

IT - is a blue starfish whose home is a big fish tank in Toowong Shopping Village. It shares this house with many other colourful fishes and beautiful corals. But it is unique. The only starfish there. And it glows in beautiful blue!

I think I will call it Blooey. No hint of innovation here, considering that its BLUE. Haha....

Surrender All

Received a song from a dear friend coz it ministered to her..
And it did, for me too....

Alabaster Jar

This alabaster jar
is all I have of worth
I break it at Your feet, Lord
It's less than You deserve
You're far more beautiful
More precious than the oil
The sum of my desires
and the fullness of my joy!


Like You spilled Your blood,
I spill my heart as an offering
to my King


Here I am, take me
As an offering
Here I am, giving every heartbeat
For Your glory take me


The time that I have left
is all I have of worth
I lay it at Your feet, Lord
It's less than You deserve
And though I've little strength
And though my days are few,
You gave Your life for me
So, I will live my life for You

Worthy, Worthy
You are worthy
Worthy is the Lord

In my prayers this morning, I told Him that I will trust in His provision and plans. I asked that we can be a blessing to others as many have been a great blessing to us eversince we came here. What we received, we want to give. It's a little simple prayer..but involves surrendering all my burdens and plans unto Him. I thanked Him for his grace, coz that is what sustains me through each day.

There is no limit on how much we are to surrender to Him. Because we are to surrender all. He gave His life for us, and this is what we should do too. But how great that struggle is! It's easy to life our hands and sing the songs. It's also easy to blog (like what I'm doing now!)...but really doing it? I'll be a hypocrite if I say I can do it just by a click of fingers. I can't. Day by day, I'll surrender abit more. And let Him mould me into what He has intended for me.

Growing up in a family where mum and dad were always quarelling and when they divorced when I was a teenager, I never had that fatherly love that I yearned for. How happy was I when could call Him, "Father". I know He will not forsake me ever again I felt safe. So to me, God is this "big man" who holds me in His arms and cuddles me like I'm a little girl. Someone asked me why I dun seemed to worry. To set the records straight, I do! (: But after the panic attack, I know my Father will take care of everything, no matter what. And that is grace He gives and the peace that sustains me.

Extra:
And God answers prayers! I prayed for positive attitude for today's class. (you all know how much I hate this morning's class..especially after the agonising 2 week of doing that assignment). But I enjoyed class today. The topic was interesting (and having it taught by a guest speaker helped). I'm please to announced that I am motivated to start on my final assignments already! Praise the Lord!

5551

After 2 rounds of strawberry smoothies, 1 round each of baked rice, chilli instant noodles, dumplings, tom yam bee hoon, Coles' roast chicken, pancakes, over-night dim sum, and many chocolate indulgences, the report is finally done.

5,551 words for the main report. 67 pages in total after all the appendices are in.

All for 30% only.

This is one assignment I am going to remember..for life.

Dumb

Yes. Dumb's the only word to describe what I did 3 hours ago.

Received an MSN message and naively chose to ignore the funny message (yes, I was expecting some photos from that fren though), clicked on the link, saved the file and that's it. PC's kenna hit by a string of viruses.

My stoopid mind did register that something was wrong when I first clicked the link. But the mind was also too busy focusing on the discussion with groupmate on my assignment to give any intelligent cognitive processing to this small abnormaly.

I sincerely hope that none of my MSN contacts clicked on the same link, which was sent out automatically once my machine got hit.

I just pray that after 3 hours of deep cleansing (thanks, hub), this machine will last me till all my assignments are handed on 7 Nov.

God Bless Me (and my machine).

Hazy Memories

SG has been clouded with haze these days.
Hmm....the smell of the haze....

They could stay along the promenade for hours. It was the favourite past-time for them. To stroll from Marina to Lavendar Street. Nevermind that throngs of people were keeping away from the streets because of the haze. It was good. Because it felt that the world belonged only to them.

They laughed. Reflections of the past, rantings of the current and visions of the future were shared.

It was the best time of their youth. And it led to this best time that they are having now.

Strawberries Smooch!

Look at these pretty darlings! Imagine them in.....

A Smoothie. Nice......................

P.S.: I Love You too. (:

Mixed Feelings...

Yes, today is Tuesday (again).

Morning
We did not get to present our final results for the assignment. But met up with J for discussion in his room. We are nearly there. Front part of analysis is OK. But need to work on the second part and the links. As J said, "there is something there". Yah. Easy for him to say. This "something" has been driving us crazy for the past few weeks! We will need heaven's intervention and inspiration and wisdom to come up with this "something".

This assignment is really driving us nuts. NUTS!

Afternoon
We had peanuts and fortune cookies. As B commented, thank God today is the last group presentation. Their standard really hard to meet - with all the multicultural costumes, props, songs, sketches...they do everything liao. Sure high distinction one. Hee....

But it was really fun! And we took photos like nobody's business...Haha...like last day of class.

And after the presentation, some dumb emergency alarm went off. And we went outside to the grass patch for lecture. How cool is that! Hee....

So - morning I was frustrated. afternoon I was happy. now? HUNGRY.